Alright so it’s passed 12am and its a brand new year already. Time files! ORD in 5 more months! Ahhh, the vivid flashback of my god-damn enlistment day.. EPIC!
2011 had been a fruitful year for me. Finally 21. Made some new close friends, lost some awesome one too. People come and go, friendship drifting apart, guess that’s life eh? So _|_ life. Not forgetting NS, all the shitty stuff army made me went through! All the knock-it-downs, ‘sign-extra’ phobia, the ‘you cant pass IPPT = fail in life’ stigma, depressing weekends burnt, the oversea trips t india and australia for crazy training plus many other NS shit. ORD ORD ORD, guess it means it’s all gna end eh? Bet i’ll miss all the army nonsense going on in my life once it’s gone! After all, it’s all ive been doing for 2011.
Can’t be bothered t come up with new year resolutions since i know i won’t stick t them. Only hope that 2012 would be a better year for me and all my loved ones. Cherish everyone around and appreciate the things they do for you.
Adios peopleeee (:
ps: imy ):
yesterday’s trip to sentosa was fun. with lewis jiahao weizhong leonard gary nicholas and matthew. it was seriously enjoyable. if only all the rest could come than it would be perfect! and now im baked. over cooked can describe better. lol.
after that meant cat samuel zj at vivo for lunch. had carls junior and we seriously were full or rather bloated cause theres acty free refill. lol. so the very kiasu group of us made excellent use of this value-added service as well as the great invention; cup. lol.
spent the night at orchard. the place i used to aviod so much in the past. but since workin ther for so long, i gotten used to it. lol. went shoppin but didnt get anything for myself. wanted a sunglass but dont know which 1 to get so i bought nth. =.= tonned at lewis hse in the end. tired~~~ KON! lol
and today we had barbeqcue which i suggested at the very last min and tt 2 v nice bud of mine got everything organised! lol. nice great job! haha. agn as usual. not everyone came down. lol. never mind. its tirin to say so much everytime anyway. and yeah. managed to have fun sittin around chattin and jokin. argh.. the results are sure gonna hit me hard. SIAN!
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prelims is just days away and everyone is studying their ass off. so am i =( 1st paper is on tuesday. worst of all, its physics and english! *double KO-ed wtf. tuesday is sure going to be a ‘offend-me-and-die’ day. wednesday no school for me!! im not retaking so phew~ at least can relax abit. lol. wed also die. science prac!! argh. god save me lar. dying liao.
my deepest consodolense for steve irwin. the world have once again lost another hero.
love me for who i am, hate me for who i were, envy me for what i am you wasnt.
the chalet have ended. quite a sucessful one. and we celebrated lewis birthday there. he smashed cake on me!!! argh! innocent me! ill get my revenge one fine day. real soon.
i felt so odd out of a sudden. torrents of emotion flash through my mind. my mind is running wild. maybe distracted in my pool of thoughts.
ive got a colossal amount of stuffs that i need to let out. but i couldnt find anyone to confide in. i dont wish to trouble those that are alr having their own problems to handle. i felt so disconsolated from the rest. perhaps i was never meant to be in the group anyway.
im sorry if i offended anyone of you thru whatever ways. i meant to harm okay. im just to blunt at times. my apology. PEACE.
salvaging something isnt as simple as i thought it was. at least for the mental part i meant. i need a bulldozer to bring the mental barrier down. its limiting my actions. i dont have to ability to overcome it.
thanks for trying. i appreciated that. frankly speaking, perhaps im too demanding and also youre not quite there yet. there are many factors pulling us back. many distractions too. i tried to give in everythin ive got. but you dont seem to appreciate at times. at times only lar. i seriously need a liberator. breakaway from all my troubles.
sometimes i see escaping as a form of solution. whenever im in a predicament, i always thought that being me isnt easy at all. well at least this is what i think. im undergoing too much for a 16 year old boy. i felt very insecure inside. all those hideous-looking people tryin to bring me down. like those fox did to bring down ben in barnyard. i never wanted to inferior to people. but im lacking of confidence in myself. i always felt that people around me are greater and more prefect than me. in the sense that they are more daring, cooler, nicer, smarter or whatever. i dare not take risk unlike those daring one, who offen do those impulsive but stupid stuff and yet, they get all the attention that i always yearn for. why? i thought the evil never triumph the good? or issit that im on the wrong track and is the evil one instead? can anyone guide me?
to you:
you hesitated and was reluctant to pass me your phone. i never knew why until i saw you tryin to drag time and clearing your inbox or outbox. you need not delete your msg whenever you pass your phone to me. i wont interfere with your private life. im sorry for creatin such bad impression of me in you. its your own life you lead. as long as you wont regret it, im fine with it. im not as cool as your other friends or so ever. i will never do those stuff that you always wanted to. but im me. i need someone that trust me before we can build up the bonding in us. maybe im the only willing party. it takes two hand to clap. i admit i used to pester you to come accompany me. never will i do it again. wo xiang ni kuai le shi ying wei wo. im too much of a hindrance to you instead. im sorry.
its 815 in the morning and im awake, all gear up for my social studies isp later. meeting lewis and gang for breakfast later at 930.so i must get gg soon.
my baby sister, kelly, is getting more adorable and loveable everytime i play with her. she’ll give those innocent looks or smile which really melts my heart. argh. im getting jealous. the pics are below.
going to town after the isp, lewis getting his tee, while im gg to order my jaychou lastest cd which comes with a poster! i only knew about it ytd when shiqi told me. now im ‘xin yang yang’ already. cant wake to get my hands on that poster. that sophisicated refined piece of poster. IS MINE!!!
isnt she adorable?!
i just realised that i can actually have a function call feed stats which will have a record of how many people actually reads my blog. although the number aint great but thanks for visiting!
went revising maths with pni sisters again. did arithmetic and quadratic eqn. learned quite alot from my pauline da jie while the other ‘getai singer’ pollute our surroundding with her beautiful vocie.
okay im lazy to blog anymore. i wanna sleep. FULLSTOP.
